24 questions

1. Who was your FIRST prom date? I didn't go to prom but I did homecoming it was Alex Carter.
2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love? Yes I talke to him on occasion I dont always know how to get ahold of him but he always shows up when I need him most or he needs me we are still good friends.
3. What was your 1st alcoholic drink? Malbu Rum. 4. What was your FIRST job? I shoveld horse S##t at a arabian horse ranch
5. What was your FIRST car? a 1985 Honda Accord.
6.Who was the FIRST person to text you today? I haven't even go a text today.
7.Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning? My son Jaxon
8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher? Mrs Small. my mommy!
9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane? Seattle Washington
10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk? Brook Raab yes sometimes.
11. Where was your FIRST sleep over? I cant remember.
12 Who was the FIRST person you talked to today? Jeremy
13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time? Tami Hunsaker Beach
14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning? Played with Jaxon.
15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to? Alan Jackson and Joe Nichols
16. FIRST tattoo? A horse shoe on my right hip
17. FIRST piercing? My ears when I was 8.
18 First foreign country you've been to? Never been outside the US.
19. FIRST movie you remember seeing? Benji
20. What was the first state you lived in? Utah
21. Who was/are your FIRST roommate(s)? Brittney and Justin.
22 If you had one wish. What would it be? For my husband and I to open a guide and outfitting service in Nevada or Wyoming
23. What is something you would learn if you had the chance? I would love to play the guitar
24. Who do you think will be the next person to post this? I am not sure I tag Ali

99 things

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea.
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child - i'm an adopted child does that count?
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run-in elementary school
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been a passenger on a motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book - no but I did the artwork for a childrens book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year’s Eve
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life - at least they say I did
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Got a tattoo
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

Sweet Baby Jaxon

Oh Sweet Jaxon wont you please go to sleep I am exhausted. Jaxon is getting teeth I am pretty sure it has been a few years since my last baby but I am pretty sure that is what is wrong with him I have listened to him scream for the last 3 hours!!! Nothing and I mean nothing will make him happy I cant believe how quickly he is growing he looks nothing like the baby in this picture here. I am tired and frustrated with him but there is nothing I have wanted more than this baby I am so glad to have him here after 3 years of tears and a miscarriage I have him here to scream while I pull my hair out. It all goes by so fast I really must cherish every moment with him even if I want to cry with him.

Oh my Heck will it ever end?

Look at me could I be more exhausted? I have had enough, waiting on my boss for a meeting that he was an hour and a half late too it wasnt his fault but still irritating I got out of the office at 7 not really getting everythin off my chest that I needed to. I then head to my mom's to pick up my kids who are sick of me being home late every night, while getting the run down of the day from my mother about how many times Jaxon pooped and Ryan's book order being late and Jessie being sick I send the Big kids out side my sister walks in the door ( I never get to see her anymore she is in school up north) so I stay and talk to her for a minuet leaving the big kids outside moments later I hear the blood curdling scream come from my daughter I sigh and head for the door. She of course is sobbing so hard you cant understand a word she says. Between cry's I make out that Ryan slammed her hand in the car door while they were fighting over the front seat? What the hell? So I spend 15 minuets diagnosing her hand thank god it wasn't broken. I get her and Jaxon loaded in the car and then Ryan starts sobbing by this point I was not sure if I wanted to find out why I only live 2 blocks from my mom 30 seconds later we pull in the drive way get everyone in the house Jessica is still crying, Ryan is crying because his feeling were hurt, (I still am not sure why despite my efforts to decode his crying) and now Jaxon is crying. I dont know how much longer I can do this I do not have enough hands or time to go around Jaxon takes up most of my time and my poor big kids get neglected. They have been big helpers making their lunches to take to school and doing chores Ryan feeds and takes care of the animals as well as 2 rooms in the house a day and Jessica washes all the baby bottles by hand and helps with dinner as well as her household chores, but by the time I get home at night we have 2 hours together that spend trying to keep Jaxon happy because he needs to be held. I dont know if any of this makes any sense I just need to vent I miss Jeremy so much and I really could use the extra hands. I have to go now Jaxon is awake and crying and I need to go to bed. Thanks for listening I think I feel better now.