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Well my Nice challenge was basically a big flop I was nice but I wasn't really reporting back what I discovered is it is easy for me to be nice I do however have a hard time when some on is a jackass. On to another note Halloween has come and gone and I am great full however I am not loving the fight with my 3 year old he is all sorts of Jacked up on Sugar and when I take it away he will just find where I hid it I swear that kid can climb walls. He wore the most adorable tin man costume that my Mom made. Jessica was a cat. And Ryan was a Cop. We had a great night trunk or treating and then going trick or treating. I have gotten the chance to take down all the Halloween Decorations in my house and put up my Thanksgiving ones which is great the house looks all comfy and cozy for The Holidays coming up. I am really missing Jeremy and I cant wait until he gets home soon I am so happy that he is still working It will really make the winter a little easier for us I was really really worried that we would not make it while he was laid off. I am working 2 Jobs now one at the store and I am working from Home for Suanne Hoffman. Well I have lots of Laundry to put away so I will check in soon meanwhile I hope everyone is enjoying the first day of November as much as I am!
Well my nothing but nice day 2 was okay I had no problems at work but I did have harder time projecting loving words to my very very very grumpy 3 year old he was kind of a little shit last night and I loose my patience with him very quickly but he did get to bed and I got some piece and quiet
Okay so day one went by just fine I did find however that I don't know how to get rid of someone bothering me at work without being an ass so instead I had to listen to a guy who looked very much like Larry the cable guy talk to me for like a hour some stinky truck driver, Now I have my opinions about truck drivers not all are bad in fact there are some that come in the store that I just absolutely love however a good majority of them drive me crazy, some that are lonely and have a lot to say and then there are the ass holes yes that is right folks some drivers are assholes. But all in all today was not that bad there was nobody to piss me off so being nice was easy so now I am on to day 2.
Okay I am a bitch it is true I am so horrible I am mean and I dont care what you think and sometimes I like to start a fight just to get some of my anger out so here is what I am going to do about it. I am going to start small with a & Day Challenge for myself I am thinking that not only do I need to be kind with my words but I need to show one small act of kindness a day this is going to be hard I am not sure what I will do tomorrow it is going to be a long day and Monday's are me worst but I will give it a shot I will report back tomorrow
I am having a terrible day I didn't realize it was a bad day until I got home and thought to myself you have been looking for a fight all week... What is wrong with me, I learned a long time ago that anger stems from deep seeded sadness, so what am I sad about?... Well I had some water heater, family Drama last week that had me in tears for hours that's right folks hours, I completely lost it. my Mother of course spent hours driving me crazy with the intent to help solve my problem. God bless her heart she was very helpful but I was in no place to be around anyone. I love fall and I am sad that my husband is not here to enjoy it with me I know that. There is also alot of animosity here at home the kids are fighting non stop and I know that they are feeding off of me. I have been very cruel with my words to them lately and I know that is not fair.I am also coming to the realization that my life is going by to quickly. Have I hit my midlife c
crisis? I guess I need to ponder on that for a while but meanwhile I will try not to look like this girl....
